ain't no mystery why i'm in misery...it's hell

Today is the 28th of April. I leave in 2 months exactly. I am more excited and anxious than ever before. I can tell summer is almost here the bugs are getting bigger.

Let me tell you a secret..

A good night with my best girlfriends...
Maggie and I actually look decent in a photo together.

This summer could be one of the best so far...

i ordered a new bike today..
i have no bills to pay..
i am moving in with Angela and Matt sunday.
i am looking for an adventure daily.
i am going to miss my friends.
i am happy to find some new.
i wish i could go out and catch some fireflies right now,
in a jar like when i was little.
Stay up really late sitting outside starring at the sky,
looking for shapes in the clouds.
Hearing the crickets.
Smelling the afternoons fresh cut grass scent.

Where the F is summer?!


Jet Li is getting neutered today. He had to stay over and I miss him! xo

Fuck Yeah empty apartment

So the apartment is empty due to me selling all of my shit...
and Ben is teaching me trackstands and to ride backwards in our livingroom/kitchen.
we should have done this a long time ago!!!
xo emily

SUNDAY BLOODY SUNDAY

Here is my day in photographs...
started with making the bed
inventory at work
stupid church sign by moms house
finding a creepy cemetery
jet li helping me clean
if you squint enough Dayton looks like a city
Angelas hair makeover
BEERmosas
shitty chinese food
it is all ending with a Ryan Gosling flick!

listening to

neil young lying on the hardwood floor with all the windows open hearing raindrops is pretty much the best.

saddest thing ever!

i saw a boston terrier get hit by a car....
devistating..
he was ok though aside from a broken leg.
but i still got tears in my eyes.
i like puppies more than most people.
is that bad?

teeeeeeeeth

so i have been having these weird dreams where my teeth just crumble out of my little mouth..fucking disturbing.
i found some bullshit hippie website that tells mme this is what it means..
Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.

FUCK THAT!
all i know is i am REAL happy when i wake up in the morning and run my tongue across these pearly whites.
xo

3 a.m.

I can't sleep..
I am thinking about baby bunnies
Flying rats.
Hard times.
Good times.
unknown things.
questions.
insecurities.
watching scary movies alone.
wishing my bed was smaller.
idiotic conversations.
useless conversation.
fun days that i wish i could relive.
being a girlscout.
puppies and ice cream.
rainbows and sunshine.
what the fuck are you thinking?
cell phones.
getting my heart ripped out.
sea horses.
space.
lonliness.
talking and not talking.
what the fuck am i doing?
do you want to come over?
80 degrees on my skin.
salt water in my mouth.
laughing.
rolling down hills.
Going to town.
Fuck..
Sleep.
Lack of.

70 degrees+Day off work with Mags= pure goodness

Maggie and I drove around today and took some photos of some overly nice houses. Then got hit with a crazy shit storm.













Plus I have big news and it goes like this... Ben has decided to move to Chicago for the summer. So what that means for me is that I am going to break my lease and stay with Matt and Angela for a bit until i feel I have enough money in savings. THEN I make the move! Oh Ben is still moving to NY with me. So all works out in the end I get the roomie, the boy and a new LIFE! I am pretty excited.

do you think Jet Li should?

I think Jet Li's first trip to the beach is long overdue...i think he needs to surf. I would like to try as well.