Also..

I was reading over past blogs and came across a comment that said something like "you don't know I exist but I want to do it with you." Who wrote that????????!!!! Curiosity killed the cat I know but come on. I have to know who you are. Are you Ryan Gosling?! If so I know you exist, I do, I do! Anyways not like we will do it but hey you never know. ha. Grow some and tell me who you are mystery man or woman?

Fucking 29!

I am not one to get all sentimental and shit but wow 29!? I feel like i have blinked my eyes twice since i was 21. Where did it all go? I am sitting in my apartment all alone at 10:24 p.m. wandering, thinking about past birthdays. Always fun, always a party. Do birthdays get more dull as time flies by? I miss my friends from ohio. Honestly i am not sure if i should go out and get shitfaced right now (so i have a better story than "i watched gossip girl and rearranged my room," or stay here and embrace the facts.
Kate moved back to Florida my best girlfriend here is gone. Andy is the bees knees but we can't girl talk AND he has to wake up earlier than i'd like to discuss. Maybe I should just go to bed and pretend like it's another Monday night that isn't anything. If I do that can I stay 28?
Things have really reversed for me here in NY. I am actually pretty financially and career satisfied. I have no social skills left is the problem. Maybe i only had them to begin because it was liquid based.
We'll see what comes of it all...keep you posted.
KATE COME BACK I HATE IT WITHOUT YOU! xoxo Emily

I wish

there were more hours in a day sometimes. I would like for us all to be able to do all the things i would like to do and still get to cuddle with my handsome bf. Make dinners, watch movies, play scrabble, eat cupcakes, do crossword puzzles, make kissy face that leads up to something better of course and THEN sleep and make breakfast in the morning. Perfection. Too bad I can't pause time time or create it out of plastic bags from the bodegas. ha.
My birthday is next week. I have no friends that will be in town except Andy. We are going to dinner. I am very excited to get dressed up! Should I get my nails done and a massage? Or my hair done? I love to be pampered.
Dirty Dancing is on I'm outro.

sober

I have decided to quit drinking for a bit, maybe a long bit. I'm thinking birthday? Andy and I went on a pretty out of control rager this past weekend. I spent 200 dollars in one day on nothing...to feel like shit for 2 days. Just think I could have a cuisineart electric mixer, a new pair of shoes or even a plane ticket somewhere! Not cool. Casey is coming on monday and she is one of my best friends i know she would respect my decision to the fullest but i might enjoy a bottle of wine at a fancy dinner for some closure with her. Otherwise if you want to see me I will be out but, I will be sober. I might be baking. I may also be taking up knitting. Who KNOWS?! That's all i got for now. xoxo

i want. i want. i waaaaaant

-pogo polaroid camera
-electric mixer
-a fancy dinner once a week
-to cook dinner 6 nights a week
-to make people happy
-to bake more
-to run more
-to move to Fiji
That's all for now.
xoxo

kitties or doggies? tupac or biggie?

I have not written in a long time again! Brooklyn is great. I have met a lot of new friends. I have a great bartending job. I have been thinking about the next steps in my life. Through talking with a lot of people in the culinary field, I have learned that the school part is not important, self teaching and experience are the things to focus on. So I have been reading a lot and baking some.
I also have decided I will not be in NY for very long, two years max. I want to see stars, hang out where there are trees, smell fresh air etc.
I am headed off to a supposed cupcake master hanging out in union square this week.
xoxo

The game of LIFE

I have not written in awhile. I have not been writing in general. Which is something that keeps me sane and keeps my crazy brain glued together. I have lots of stuff going on right now. Almost all of it is good! I am leaving for Brooklyn on sunday morning. I am excited and anxious. I have many ideas in the works!
I do not have regrets. I am who I am. I hope that my heart is not being naive right now.
xoxo emily
I want some twizzlers RIGHT NOW!

Someone PLEASE go here with me!

Lets ghost hunt!

FML

The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of goodness and fuck my life ingredients. The move is so close! My brand new gangster ass bike got stolen :( I spent 12 days or so with the hottest piece of man yum. I sold my car! I bought Jet Li a new bed for brooklyn. Now i just need to buy one for myself! I have taken up a few new hobbies and quit drinking! Here is a photo of Andy and I going to Brett and Jannels wedding. FUN TIMES! Aren't we adorable?

Current Obsessions...

Running.
Eating delicious food.
Romanitic nights with myself.
Getting the fuck out.
My ladies.
Long Hair.
Waking up early.
Finding keys.
Winning.
Longing.
Sidepipe.
Yoga.
Hummus.
Black Tea.
H20.
Finding comedy in everything.
Bananas. yum
Job searching.
<3.
writing letters.
xo-Emily

Top 5-ish

I am not going to laminate it or anything buuut this is a topic of conversation that comes up between Mags, Ang and I pretty much everytime we hang out. There are 6 fellows here..but Bill Murray doesn't really count because not physically attractive however has a shining personality. Thats what really counts, right ladies? I am rambling..RYAN GOSLING wins by far. Doyle goes in for obvious reasons. Christian Bale in American Phsyco..come on! Who wouldn't? I do not have a thing for Nazis, just guys who play them. I think i have a thing for tall slim guys with shaved heads. Thats all for now.
p.s. this is what your life comes to when all you do is work, sit @ home and save money.

Obsession

i am oficially obsessed with the Dyson Airblade hand dryer..it is marvelous. I want one in my bathroom for the bargain price of $4000 dollars.WTF?! We have one @ work and i wash my hand more times than anyone should..

ain't no mystery why i'm in misery...it's hell

Today is the 28th of April. I leave in 2 months exactly. I am more excited and anxious than ever before. I can tell summer is almost here the bugs are getting bigger.

Let me tell you a secret..

A good night with my best girlfriends...
Maggie and I actually look decent in a photo together.

This summer could be one of the best so far...

i ordered a new bike today..
i have no bills to pay..
i am moving in with Angela and Matt sunday.
i am looking for an adventure daily.
i am going to miss my friends.
i am happy to find some new.
i wish i could go out and catch some fireflies right now,
in a jar like when i was little.
Stay up really late sitting outside starring at the sky,
looking for shapes in the clouds.
Hearing the crickets.
Smelling the afternoons fresh cut grass scent.

Where the F is summer?!


Jet Li is getting neutered today. He had to stay over and I miss him! xo

Fuck Yeah empty apartment

So the apartment is empty due to me selling all of my shit...
and Ben is teaching me trackstands and to ride backwards in our livingroom/kitchen.
we should have done this a long time ago!!!
xo emily

SUNDAY BLOODY SUNDAY

Here is my day in photographs...
started with making the bed
inventory at work
stupid church sign by moms house
finding a creepy cemetery
jet li helping me clean
if you squint enough Dayton looks like a city
Angelas hair makeover
BEERmosas
shitty chinese food
it is all ending with a Ryan Gosling flick!

listening to

neil young lying on the hardwood floor with all the windows open hearing raindrops is pretty much the best.

saddest thing ever!

i saw a boston terrier get hit by a car....
devistating..
he was ok though aside from a broken leg.
but i still got tears in my eyes.
i like puppies more than most people.
is that bad?

teeeeeeeeth

so i have been having these weird dreams where my teeth just crumble out of my little mouth..fucking disturbing.
i found some bullshit hippie website that tells mme this is what it means..
Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.

FUCK THAT!
all i know is i am REAL happy when i wake up in the morning and run my tongue across these pearly whites.
xo

3 a.m.

I can't sleep..
I am thinking about baby bunnies
Flying rats.
Hard times.
Good times.
unknown things.
questions.
insecurities.
watching scary movies alone.
wishing my bed was smaller.
idiotic conversations.
useless conversation.
fun days that i wish i could relive.
being a girlscout.
puppies and ice cream.
rainbows and sunshine.
what the fuck are you thinking?
cell phones.
getting my heart ripped out.
sea horses.
space.
lonliness.
talking and not talking.
what the fuck am i doing?
do you want to come over?
80 degrees on my skin.
salt water in my mouth.
laughing.
rolling down hills.
Going to town.
Fuck..
Sleep.
Lack of.

70 degrees+Day off work with Mags= pure goodness

Maggie and I drove around today and took some photos of some overly nice houses. Then got hit with a crazy shit storm.













Plus I have big news and it goes like this... Ben has decided to move to Chicago for the summer. So what that means for me is that I am going to break my lease and stay with Matt and Angela for a bit until i feel I have enough money in savings. THEN I make the move! Oh Ben is still moving to NY with me. So all works out in the end I get the roomie, the boy and a new LIFE! I am pretty excited.

do you think Jet Li should?

I think Jet Li's first trip to the beach is long overdue...i think he needs to surf. I would like to try as well.

i feel like i'm walkin' on sunshine

i added the stencils to these moleskin notebook today..my hands are black and i think i got a little high but they are pretty fuckin killer.

its hard to let you go..

back to the grind after a few amazing days off. I am so over this place. I know everyone says the same thing but, I really can't take it for too much longer. I am just not happy here right now. I need to leave for atleast a couple years. I feel like i will be a better person if i experience somewhere else. That'sall for now. OH ballet starts soon..that will probably make me happier.

venez embrassez-moi pour toujours

Just a perfect day
Drink sangria in the park
Then later, when it gets dark
We go home

Just a perfect day,
Feed animals in the zoo
Then later, a movie, too
And then home

Oh it’s such a perfect day
I’m glad I spent it with you
Oh such a perfect day
You just keep me hanging on

Just a perfect day
Problems all left alone
Weekenders on our own
It’s such fun

Just a perfect day
You made me forget myself
I thought I was someone else
Someone good

i have decided

i am going to write a book. that's all for now...

i need to tidy up

my brain after this weekend...30 hours of work...a bunch of money later...i am fucking exhausted.

calm kill

1. liars
2. east daytonians
3. ego driven fucks
4. fire starters
5. u.d./wright state/northface wearin'/jager bomb ordering/millerlite drinking mutha fuckas

side note: angela and i are going to put learning how to make our ass clap a priority this summer..destination:west side. fuck it.

being sick is the worst

but movie marathons, making a bed on the couch and eating too many popsicles pretty much rules..SICK DAY! Too bad I am not faking that would be even better.

today is gonna be a good one..

all about cheering up a close friend of mine
bartending a private party...
post office run
getting my hair did
yogasizing
oh and the cinnamon toast crunch i just ate..
soo good.

that's a handsome man

just sayin'

let's run away together...

today is a good day for you and i to be far away from the world....

white party and new hair...

yes i am attending a white party tonight and no it's not hosted by P. Diddy.
oh and i pulled the trigger on my hair.

should i?

i am deciding on this hair....anyone back back it?

R.I.P. Stanley

we had some good times...but he's gone. sad face for sure.

i love

1.days when i make an obscene amount of money at work.
2. that i am making a big dinner for all of my friends tonight.
3. that distance doesn't even matter...it's still fun.
4. that tonight i will sleep so good.
5. oh and when jet li misses me so much he follows me everywhere.

crazy love

This movie is just fucking bonkers! I did enjoy it. Wow love a girl so much you blind her...then marry her years later?
that's just what they called it crazy love! good think she can't see his ugly ass...
and she chain smokes cigarettes that are a mile long.

i have decided to cyber beg for money. that'a all.

another day another dollar...

so i need to save a metric fuckton of money....
i need some ideas.
maybe some side jobs?
fuck i don't know.
anyone need thier hair did?


on a more uplifting note i bought some leather shorts..that's right i said leather.
makes me look forward to those hot summer nights.
cross stitchin party tonight.

My new Smith Corona.

I am getting a new roomie at the start of the new month so i really had to jam pack my room with everything..is this silly? i love my shoes.